Last week, I wrote about a bit of a crazy idea, that I think I’ve been given, to just give money away, wrapped up in a message of, “God Loves You.” (Link here)
This week, I’m going to try to take down a transcript, of sorts, of the conversation/thoughts, that I’ve been having, with God, about this idea.
(I’m unable to give a full recording of what’s been going on, so I’ll just try to do what I can.)
(The bits that I think are more likely to be a direct input from God, I have made bold.)
Begin transcript…
God, … Really???
Do You, really want me to do this???
You know it’s crazy, don’t You??? … Of You do. You know all things. But, is this really from You? …
Do you think it could work?
Well, yes. If we tell someone that, “God Loves you” and that’s all we do, then they tend to not listen to us, and walk on by. But, if we told people, “God Loves you, and we have a gift of money to give to you, from God, just to say, God really does Love you.” Well, that might get a little bit more attention.
Or, I could even try the other delivery method of, just leave the gift, … Somewhere, wrapped up so that it can be seen that it is money (so that there’s less chance of it ending up in the bin), with a message that says, “Gift from God” on the outside, with a scripture or something on the inside. Then I leave it in Your hands. …
Then, it would be, over to You. For You to do with it, as You see fit.
But what if the wrong person picks it up?
What if it causes trouble or strife, in some way?
What if it all just goes wrong?
What was that bit you just said, of … “Then I leave it in Your hands.” ?
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But, do I want to part of something, that just goes wrong, in some way, that then just goes to, … ????
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Yeah, I know the answer to this one already, “Then I leave it in Your hands.”
Yes, I know, I’m not God, You are.
Some things I’m responsible for, and I know, that there’s more things, that I’m not responsible for. I shouldn’t try to pick up things, that are not my responsibility.
But, I should, instead, just try to work with, that, which I’m meant to be doing.
Ok. But, is this idea really from You, or is it just my over active imagination?
I know that I can have a tendency to get carried away with things, if I’m not careful.
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Have I told you to not do this?
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Well, no. …
When I’ve spoken to fellow believers about it, they’ve told me, with a bit of a silly grin on their face, “If you’ve feel that you’ve been told to do this, then do it.”
Which has been, a little bit of, not what I’m looking for. As part of me, wants for people to tell me that, I’m crazy, and that I shouldn’t be so silly.
My wife is all for the idea, and is even asking, “When are we going to do it, then?”
Which is kind of Fun, and really annoying, all at the same time! … ???
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I’m starting to think, that we could just start small. Instead of standing on the street, and shouting out, about it. We, me and my wife, could just leave a something, somewhere.
Instead of it being the full printed invite, with QR codes to various posts, it could just be a simple hand written note, stating something like, “Gift from God, just to say, God Loves you.” With a hand written verse inside. Such as …
John 3:16-17
16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.
For the very first one, I could even, not write down my blog site name of Wannabe Christian Doorman, but just leave it as, being a gift from You. God.
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OK, my wife is all for this. She seems to be even more eager to do this than me. We will go for the small start, and then just see where we go from there?
After we have left it, in it’s location to be found, we’ll then need to trust you, with what happens next to it.
Yes, I know about the parable of the seeds.
There are a few groups that fail, for various reasons.
But, there is also the group that finds good soil, that then produces a crop of, a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.
Both me, and my wife, pray that this first gift from You, will find good soil, that will help to lead someone, to You.
(Again, I have to admit, my wife has been better at this bit, than me.)
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Does this idea, fall in line with the teaching, from the parable of the shrewd manager. (Luke 16:1-9) Use worldly wealth, to make progress in Your Heavenly Kingdom. ???
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OK, it’s clear to me, that we will try to go forward with this, with little steps first.
But one little thing, I have to ask about this, …
Why do I feel, sooo daft, for even contemplating this???
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I know, there’s a scripture verse, to answer this very thought.
2 Samuel 6:21-22
21 David retorted to Michal, “I was dancing before the Lord, who chose me above your father and all his family! He appointed me as the leader of Israel, the people of the Lord, so I celebrate before the Lord. 22 Yes, and I am willing to look even more foolish than this, even to be humiliated in my own eyes! But those servant girls you mentioned will indeed think I am distinguished!”
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I’m hoping that I’ll get just past this feeling of silliness, over this. … ???
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