I effectively needed to tell myself to, not be so Grumpy.
I’d been having a bit of a testing time, and I was effectively, finding myself, falling short, of a better way of dealing with the situation, even though I’ve written about a better way to deal with tough situations in the past.
The short version of the troubles, is car problems.
My wife has a motorability car, a bit of a nice one, and it broke down.
It’s only just over a year old, and it was broken. 😦
I’m not going to go into all the details, as this would be just chasing after the chaff. But the situation I found myself in, to my thinking, was a comedy of errors, one after another, until I reached the point of, “I give up.”
I’m trying to think of a short way to explain, what happened, and the only way I can think of is. I had expectations of what would happen, if things went wrong, and they didn’t work out, as I would have liked.
I spent too much time, on the phone, chasing my tail, talking to several parties, to try to work things out, to find it was a lot more work, than I could cope with.
We were without a car, for just over a week.
It was when the hire car turned up, that I then needed to have a word with myself. (After the main storm had settled, a bit.)
As I said, our car, the broken one, is a bit of a nice car, and the replacement hire car, was not as nice of a car.
This irritated me a bit. (More than it should have.)
My thoughts were going to, we’re paying for the nice car, and now we’ve got this not so nice car (that’s different to our one nice one, which meant that I didn’t know where certain functions where on the car were), for I don’t know how long, it’s just not right!
This was on top of all the other grief that I’d had, plus a few other niggles.
I was loosing the battle to not being grumpy, and as such, I was going the wrong way.
We were mobile again.
We were blessed, and I knew it, but part of me, wanted to focus on the wrong side of things.
It shouldn’t have been this or that, and now I’ve got to settle for this. It’s not right! (Was the direction I was heading in. 😦 )
All along, part of me knew this was wrong thinking, but I still couldn’t seem to shift it.
I needed to admit that I was unhappy with what had/was going on.
I was listening to praise music, as this is something that I normally do.
As my bad mood increased, my want to do this, was less.
Fortunately, good habits, prevailed, mostly.
I believe that there was a part of me, that was trying to not be so grumpy.
A part of me, that was trying to tell me, that, we are blessed. That we now had use of a car, and that we were now mobile again.
It was a choice to try and think this way.
It was a bit of a battle, that was more of a struggle to break through into, than I would have liked. But, slowly, my thinking, started to get a bit better.
A couple of things happened, that just blessed me. (I think that I can call them, opportunities, to do something useful, which just helped me.)
I think that, part of the turning point was, trying to tell myself, to stop being so grumpy about, what was going on, and to look at the positive things, that were also happening, just there, in front of us.
I’m also thinking that I needed to acknowledge, in a correct way, that I was unhappy, with what was going on, then bring it before my Lord God.
Looking back, I’m thinking that it would have been so much better to have remembered that three little words, can make a big difference. But this time, that thought didn’t come.
Those words are, Accept, Repent and Forgive. There is power here.
Even though the three words didn’t come to me, I was guided to a better way of looking at things. Which, eventually, I did. 🙂
Can it be that, sometimes, to not be grumpy, is a choice, that we just need to make, on some level???