I’m Waiting for my Wife to be Fully Healed.

My wife is disabled. She is a stroke survivor. I’m not stating this, in order to get any type of sympathy. (Don’t take this the wrong way, but please keep it to yourself. 🙂 ) I’m saying this because, that is just the way it is. If you would like to read the long story of how this came to be, then you can read about it here.

Both me and my wife, are still waiting for her to be completely healed. At this point, we have been waiting for over 23 years. The wait is a bit longer than we would like it to be, but we do still make the choice to praise and thank our Lord God, for His help and guidance to us in the here and now. Sometimes, this is not an easy choice to make.

My wife has told me, and several other people, that while she was in the hospital, she had a vision of Jesus, telling her that He would completely heal her. Our pastor and his wife, at the time that it happened, also prayed for my wife, whilst she was in the hospital. It was at one of the darker moments. But the prayer was said in such a way, that I half looked towards my wife, and thought, “Are you going to get up then?”

I’m sorry to say, that I did let out a small laugh when she didn’t get up. It was just such a bizarre situation. My wife was lying in the hospital bed, unresponsive, on a knife edge, of where she was going to be next, then my pastor and his wife were declaring, “Get up! Be healed, in the name of Jesus.” As I said, it was delivered with a something extra to it, so much so, that I did look for her to just sit up and expect (or want to see), her just walk out of the hospital there and then. But it didn’t happen, and (unfortunately) I gave out a small laugh.

I have heard that my pastor and his wife, fully expected my wife to be healed in that moment, and that it shook them, when it didn’t happen, at that point in time.

I’m still waiting for that prayer, and the vision that my wife had, to be fully realised.

The sceptic in me, would say, “Read the small print. It will happen when you and your wife get to heaven and we stand before Our Lord God.”

We do hope that the sceptic in me is wrong, and that it will happen sooner than that. But even if the sceptic is right, both me and my wife will continue to praise and thank Our Lord God for all the good that we do have, in the here and now.

Most of the time, we are both just getting on with life in the here and now. But every now and then we do ask again, “Lord, can we see the full healing of my wife, in the here and now?” It can be tough to even ask this, as an apparent answer of, “Not just yet.” still hurts. So for the most part, we just get on with our lives, quietly hoping, that today will be the day, that it will happen.

Just because things are not working out the way that we would like them to is not a reason to stop looking to Our Lord God Almighty! He is our Hope and Strength, in the here and now. We will try to continue to follow the example of Habakkuk, when he says, “yet I will rejoice in the Lord”.

Habakkuk 3:17-19

¹⁷ Though the fig tree does not bud
    and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
    and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
    and no cattle in the stalls,
¹⁸ yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
    I will be joyful in God my Savior.

¹⁹ The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
    he enables me to tread on the heights.